I wrote that last journal in a rush.
I had to leave my dorm really fast so the whole thought process is kind of incomplete.
You get the idea though: not happy, have to do something about it.
So I will.

I don't like Neuroscience.
I tried to like it. Some things are interesting. But I don't necessarily care what parts of the brain/spinal cord make you do certain things. I'm more interested in the behavior aspect, the psychology of it. I'll just say that I'm happy for this class, but I'll leave my medical interests to health shows and such Besides, Neuroscience won't take me anywhere that interesting. I can do Pharmacology, which is a big NO THANKS. I can become a neurologist. But, I'm not interested enough. It's tons of money to do something I'm only slightly interested in.

Do I like Psychology? I fucking love it.
I'm good at it, I knew I would be. Do I really want to become a psychologist, pay all this money to listen to people bitch and moan?
No. Not really, I get enough of that simply being me. I still would love to help children, Child Psychology sounds interesting but like people have told me...I would take my job home with me. I couldn't be detached. I would literally toss and turn all night because of a patient.
I still want to major in psychology, definitely. I don't know what I want to do with it, though. I love social psychology, the whole why we're good/why we're evil. I spent 8 hours studying that chapter and the experiments that went along with it. I've never had that kind of devotion before. I'm just like, sitting there studying going 'THIS IS SO BADASS ;;' which made me happy!!
So I get that. Mhmm.

Besides that, I haven't a clue. I'm just worried about finding a job. I don't want to do all these years of schooling, which I should take into consideration. I have a lot of thinking to do. I just know that I want to be happy with my decision.

Do I like BW? Parts of it. I like my friends, I like the Cybercafe, I like Professor Mickley, I like the Rec Center, and I hate everything else. I was hoping I would like it once I went there D: I don't really want to transfer, it seems like such a hassle, this is what I was afraid of. If I didn't have friends there I'd leave...but at this point...I don't know, it seems like a lot of work. But I feel like getting a boring education at a school with lots of trees is kind of a waste of my money xD like AMIJUSTPAYINFORFOLIAGE. I don't know.

To be honest, I don't even like college. I mean I think it's awesome that I'm learning more. I feel so much more intelligent but xD I'm just not...happy with college. I can't just drop out, you know. Everyone would be so disappointed, and I do want an education. I just feel like my place is elsewhere, I just don't know where it is.
I really hope my mom and aunt open up their restaurant. I would love to work there.
I feel like my place isn't in school, but in the real world now. I don't like this buffer time. I mean the first month was 'yaylookathowgrownupiam' but now I'm kind of over the whole idea D:
I feel like leaving college is a cop-out though. I don't know. People say it's the best time of your life but I kind of think they're wrong.

I hope I know sometime soon. I don't want to waste my money where it's not needed. D:

And I promise I'll have a healthier attitude about food. Like I told Nick, I made a food schedule!! I think it'll work out. I'll try to stop viewing food as an enemy. And I'm still gonna work out! But I won't be unhealthy about it. It's just a nice stress reliever, definitely.

These are all goals and I'm excited to get cracking.
Thanks guys. I LOVEEE YOUUU.